Bye bye

It's so stupid to type in here. Well, it's not possible for me hereafter to talk to you. I'm leaving chennai tomorrow. All of a sudden my heart is heavy. Yes i'm gonna miss my parents, sister, friends and you too. We haven't met before and don't think it's gonna happen ever yet i'm already missing you badly. Another love and all is highly impossible. Every time i log into yahoo messenger thoughts run in my mind about our endless conversation. How sweet it was. Though i was a pussy it felt so good. Pcch it's high time to be a man. But really can't with you. Whenever we argue i don feel like winning at all. Didn't know that losing gives u such a pleasure. U win always, remember? So, Bye.

Another one

Ha ha ha. Just got the another mail from her. She hates this blog, hates me, hates everything about me. K fine. So she liked the blog or pretended to like it only because of my birthday. This is what she wants me to think. But the mail was so uncharacteristic of her. She never says 'foot' and all. She behaves rude sometimes but not this way. I remember her saying one day," i can make you hate me". I said," it's not going to happen". Slight change now. IT'LL NEVER HAPPEN. This blog will go on and on. This isn't foolishness.

The end BEGINS

Well, i didn't think that i will be continuing with this blog but there are many pieces still left. Ok before that. I gathered courage somehow and sent a mail to all her ids without knowing which is the right one. She replied but wasn't interested. Well who will be after behaving like such a loser in the previous times. After some exchange of words showed her this blog. She was quite impressed. She likes me like me. Don't think she's the one who gives importance to looks, wealth and all. But don't know whether she liked this blog because it's my birthday that day. Anyhow she liked me as myself that's enough for me. Also she accepted my friends request in Yahoo. I asked her to be in my friends list atleast. She is doing just that, nothing more. She is not chatting with me but at least she has accepted my request. Feels so good to see her name in my list. I'm staring at it endlessly. But it's even more intriguing. Like having a rasagulla in front of you and not eating it. It's ok i can't torture her further. It's not fair on my part. She will talk to me one day. Whatever happens life must go on.

The day i'm waiting for

As i said i'm really bad at naming the posts. All text done hear is straight from heart no dictionary or thesaurus of any sort is used to make it gloomy. All might think that the day when she accepts my proposal will be the biggest day. NO. I have in my mind the day in Coffee day i'll introduce her. As i've said to them," machi oru naal elarum avanga avanga aloda coffee day la meet pandrom. Ithu nadakum". It'll be an 8 seater. 3 seats each on both sides and 1 seat each on the other two sides. Those 6 seats will be filled by my friends, one by me and one by my princess. Everyone will be dumbstruck. I want them to chant them in chorus," unna ellam epdi da eva love panna". i'll reply," It is written".
This scene is what comes in my dream again and again. May be it's too much of ask may be i'm over enthusiastic. Whatever. It is written. Because Amores perros.

The third innings

Intha olagathula evalo ponnunga irunthum naan yaen avala kadhalichaen
I can't answer the question but my choice is right. I've chosen the best one. Enna adichadhu antha kadhal thala killa pottu thirupichu. Don't know what connection i have with Gautham but his movies inspire me.
The blog which started as a tool to vent out my frustration actually increased my love on her. And now i'm going to go for her. My quest is clear. The target is tough. But i have plans. I have plans for every person. Once she accepts my proposal. I can make that marriage thing a reality. I'll make it happen.
Let the game begin

Y her

It's her. It is decided. Can't even think of any other girl in my life. It is not that i like everything about her. I too have some dislikes like she is short tempered. I don't like people insulting anyone so didn't like when she said that someone misspelled a word. I know it's to pacify me. But i don't like it at any cost. If she is not good in some topic she treats it like not an important one. She is stubborn. She annoys me sometime. She won't accept her fault etc etc. But the point is she's genuine. That's the one thing i look for in my friends and so i want my girl to be like that too. Many don't know that she's innocent at heart. There are many things other than that. I love it when she speaks Sowrashtra. Will be like a kid at that instant. i love her 'Kha' instead of 'Khayo'. Her English is awesome. But i can't be talking in English after marriage. I love my language. I like the feel of nervousness when talking to her. Also i have to be extra cautious when talking to her. I don't want to lose her. When i used to be in touch with her i don't give a damn of what others think of me. I walk as if i'm a king. I don't worry about anyone. I knew that everyone is going to envy when i get her. ' Evanku epdi da eva matuna'. I would like to hear that from laymen.

In the mean time.

I knew that i can't love another person in my life. One just can't get the feeling again. I still can't forget the first day i saw her in that pink dress. OMG. Ok ok i don't want to start again. But in the mean time i came across a few girls. Pure lust it was. The first one was Miss R. My college junior to me gets down at my stop, very very silent, never talks to anyone but she talks to me. I went and introduced and was gradually growing comfortable. She even came to my house. I finally decided and proposed. Again i say pure lust. Not even one percent of love. No nervousness nothing. She said that her parents have to agree. I knew if i had carried on i could have got her a gf. But said that we'll be in open relationship and not get committed. Then Miss K. She is near my house. Again talks only to me. I knew she was interested in me. Then Miss P. We went to coffee day. She asked what type of girl i liked. I described (Meghna). She said that she's similar to that but i didn't mind. She actually came close to proposing when i said that love and is not possible and we'll just have fun. Then Miss S, as she is interested in fashion i talked a lot of shit about it even though i didn't know abcd of fashion. She was impressed. Again i could have got her but didn't proceed. I know what i'm talking is idiotic but the point is i could not get her out of my mind. All i could do is flirt at the maximum. Other than that i can't proceed. It's her. It is written.