Clash of the titans

After hearing 'sudum nilavu' song, my dad said," if in love everything goes wrong eh?". I thought it was a silly comment but she liked it. She said that my dad is lenient and she can't discuss these things with her parents. She said she would have loved to have siblings so that she can discuss these things. Well, i don't discuss these things with my sister. She said she needs a big brother so that she feels secured. Thank god she doesn't have any siblings. I have to impress them too. She likes people looking at her but doesn't say that. Once said that everyone were staring at her in theatre and another time her mother was scolding someone looking at her. I like it when she lies about these things. Yes she is beautiful and everybody tend to see her. But she pretends as if she doesn't want to be seen. I know that's a lie but its cute. " kulu kulu poigal soli enai velvai athu therinthum kooda anbae manam athayae thaan ethirpartkum ". This again is my problem i can't lie.
And about the title its because we talked about our dads. His dad seemed to be a short tempered person. He loves cricket. Now that's one hell off an advantage to impress him.

Making of -The love letter

I started preparing for this about 20 days before executing it. Yes, at first i thought of proposing on 31st Dec 2009 so that we would have got close. If it didn't succeed then i thought of dropping and forgetting her ( note that probability is zero for that, to forget her). Then thought of preponing it to JUNE 3 my birthday, which again i thought is so late. Finally fixed the date. DECEMBER 31st 2008 midnight. The time to launch my rocket (love letter). So started thinking about it as soon as my arrear exam got over on December 5. I thought and thought and thought. Many confusions, many sudden thoughts, started liking romantic movies all of a sudden, everything around me seemed to be beautiful, the garbage, the street dog it's shit everything. HUH. It was great. Those days were awesome. 'sumayalla baram sugam thanamma'. This one was tougher than University exams.

"Oly Sameer"

Again one of her status messages. Some north indian guy had come to her college at that time. His name was Sameer. She said he was so handsome. Fuck that bastard. I don't like her talking about boys. That was the first time i felt possessive but i'm not possessive as i don't have any problem with her talking to anybody. Because i believe in her. Once she becomes mine i perfectly have no restrictions. But she hasn't become mine. And girls like guys who are possesive or protective. I'm not like that. I'm social. I want my soul mate to be like a friend who could share everything with me. Similar to kana kandaen Srikanth and Meera Jasmine. She said every time that Sameer crosses her she looks at him. I feel like punching him in his face. Also she said about her ex-lover. Thank god he is ex. Seems that he is very cool, rich, handsome moron. He's a sowrastrian too. Clever girl. She is. But she said that their relationship ended. I was so happy. That guy is short tempered like her father, yes that's what she said. Thank god i'm not short tempered. Scored the first run. Yipeee

"Where is he"

This was her status message some time during december. When i quizzed about it she said she want's someone who could love her like Suriya did to Sameera. She want's someone to love her so much, more than her dad and mom. Mam am i visible to you.....
I could have just said that i love her so much. But couldn't, i was tongue tied. Or hand striken. Huh. But she said its not possible for someone to love her more than her parents. I said it's possible and you'll get one. But i didn't put my name forward then. Then she asked what type of girl i want. I said the usual thing. Fair, straight hair, 5 inches shorter than me so that i could put a hand around her shoulder and walk, it would be romantic. I knew that she is 5 inches shorter than me. 166 cm i guess. It was like describing her. But she didn't like it. She said something very opposite to me. One big opportunity went waste.

The 'HER' incident

Some days after her birthday we were discussing about Unnale unnale. At that time i said i don't like friends becoming lovers concept. I was so preoccupied with my thoughts so couldn't remember what she replied. And i have never addressed her as a friend. That was the intention to open the topic. I don't know till now whether she understood that or not. Ok the next plan was this 'HER' incident. It came all of a sudden. When i was talking to Ramba. She was online to. Whenever she, i mean Meghna is online first preference is to her. Or shall i say only preference. This Ramba bastard was disturbing. Then he went offline. At that instant i purposely typed in Meghnas window, " I'm talking with HER will talk to you later". Then i said i did a mistake by typing in wrong window. Which she didn't find then. But she won't accept it. She'll say that she knew everything. But cute it'll be. She said she is no one special and her talking to me is no big deal. I replied, " You are everything to me and it is a big deal that you are talking to me". The words were right from my heart. Whenever it's right from heart it's so good.

THE BIRTHDAY

Because it was her birthday that day she was in a very happy mood. Loved chatting with her. Time just flies by... I asked her about what all presents she got. She said she got less presents than last year but was very happy. So non sense reason she said for that which i don't remember. She talks philosophy at times which is very irritating. But i can't tell her. That's my problem. I was afraid that she would take me wrong. I didn't want to take a chance. What would i have done if she gone out of my life. This blog would never have existed and i wouldn't have got a better job to do in my final study holidays and a lot more. Then she asked," where is your present". I said, " I don't give present to close ones". Which is true actually but she didn't like that. Then i asked her address to send present. She was cornered. She refused to give address. I knew that i won't get. But i would have sent gift for sure if she had given me the address.

The night before THE BIRTHDAY

I'm such a luck bastard you see. I came to know her just one week before her birthday. It's a great opportunity to impress her. I think i asked her cell no. the day before which she politely refused. Man, she's good at that (refusal). Whatever she does doesn't make me angry. The next day nov 28th. Had a good long chat with her. She was very sweet that day, probably because of her birthday the next day. I didn't ask about it a lot because i wanted to surprise her. at 10.30 i asked whether the clock had struck 12 there. She laughed and said "about to". Then i wished her," Happy birthday Meghna, don study too much enjoy life" n blah blah... She interrupted in the middle. I told," let me finish". She laughed. OMG i can remember everything it's so fresh in my mind. Then for some time she didn't reply, when i asked y, she said that her dad has given her a present. Foreign culture i must say. We don't give presents here within family. At least in my family. Feel kind off awkward. But with friends we do. Ok lets leave those stuff. I was very happy that day. As if she had accepted my proposal.